Thursday, February 28, 2008
Ok, I just realized you can't see the full screen!! Sorry! Anybody know how to get it show more than half the screen?
Isn't she precious? She has just the greatest laugh. I'll put a video of it farther down in this post. I really thought that we would adopt her. I prayed SO HARD that spring and summer. But God said no. It was probably the most disappointing thing that I've ever experienced. My life-long dream of a little sister to love and nurture was not in His will. But God is faithful to fill that hole in our hearts and give us a way to let that love out. My business has been so great for that. It's a tangible way to get sweet little kids like Claudia home to loving families.
Yesterday at work we had a little Hispanic girl and her mother come in. That little girl reminded me so much of Claudia. So when I got home I got on Eagle's Nest website and I was shocked to see that they had cut her hair!! :( I was so sad!!! She looks so much older and I realized that when I go back there again "my" little girl isn't going to be so little. And my heart aches for her adoptive family. Her case is very complex and they have to watch her grow up without them. Her new big sister keeps asking when Maya (the name Claudia will recieve once she's home) will come and play with her. So if you think of this sweet girl today, lift up a prayer for her and her adoptive family. Her adoption is very close to falling through right now. Within the next couple of weeks they will be having a court date and if nobody shows up to claim Claudia then they will issue a Certificate of Abandonment and her new family will be able to adopt her, Lord willing.Here's a video of her laughing. Sorry for the initial view of her mouth!! I didn't quite plan that very well and I don't know how to edit videos!!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
1.) The first thing that God has really imprinted on my heart the past week is what the body of Christ really is. As I babysat those three girls last night the phone rang off the hook. It was all people from our "Covenant Family" (our church) calling to see if they needed anything. One sweet mom helped me find a ride to church with car seats for the two younger girls. She told me to call at anytime- night or day. That is what love is. It is people gathering around their brothers and sisters in Christ, holding out their hands to help pull them out of the valley or at least make their climb out easier. I have been so touched by the church's compassion and hearts of service. I am moved to tears as I see the beautiful picture of love to these two families who are suffering. By God's grace!!! Thank you Jesus that in this messed up world we can find love to hold eachother up with. Anyway, I have been very moved and changed by watching our church gather together in these trials.
2.) The second thing is something that the speaker at the retreat talked about. She talked about repentance and I realized that I don't repent like I should. I don't see my sin as the nasty, filthy, shameful junk that it is. Why is that? I am just too self-righteous and prideful. Ouch. I'm so self-sufficient (rather, I think that I am) that I can't even admit that my heart is black as dirt. And I also realized the AMAZING grace that my God has given to me. That He picked me up- a weak, dirty, unlovable child- and washed me clean. He took my sin upon His shoulders and bore the punishment for my sin because He loved me. That is just too incredible to fathom.
3.) Getting tired yet? :) This is the last one. The last one is, I think, an ongoing struggle in the life of a Christian. God convicted me of how pathetic my devotionals are. I'm ashamed for Him to see my laziness but there's no hiding it. So, I'll attempt again to have consistent devotionals. Praise God that He loves us even when we mess up again...and again....and again.. and again..
So it's been a long week. I'm tired but I have joy and hope. And that's what will pull us through even when life's tough. Also, if any of you who are reading have any prayer requests feel free to put it in a comment on any post that I write. I'd love to pray for you!!
Me and my friend Kristen.
The four of us "ladies" led worship on the retreat. I put alot of effort into practicing but it was SO worth it. It was such a good experience for me to practice leading worship on piano. I'm so glad that I was given the opportunity.
Overall, it was a great retreat and I praise the Lord that I could go.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Saturday, February 16, 2008
God doesn't promise to give us challenges equal to our strength,
but He does promise to give us strength to fight our challenges.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
We ate dinner as a family tonight and spent the evening just hangin' out. Mom and Dad always give us a small gift every year but this year we had to wait until after school to open them because Dad was at work this morning. Caleb could hardly bear to wait another 7 HOURS to open his present! We had a "Buy One Get One Free Blizzard" coupon from Dairy Queen which expires today and so Mom and Caleb are coming in the door with our frosty treats.
Caleb and I are heading off to Kankakee tommorow for a Band/Choir trip with Cornerstone. My aunt and uncle from Maryland are flying in tommorow as well so it will be a very busy weekend!!! I'll post some pics. from both activities when I get a chance!
Have a fantastic weekend!