Wow it's been a longggg time since I've blogged. Life has been crazy busy with college. But this afternoon, the window is open, it's quiet in my dorm, and I feel like writing. I've been doing alot of writing in my journal just to keep up with what God is doing everyday but today I just want to ponder and muse. So this will probably be scattered and random but for now, that's ok.
Today my fabulous math teacher surprised me yet again with another side of him- his deep, wise, and Godly heart. So instead of delving right into linear equations he opened his Bible and gave a short lesson on wisdom, and how at the end of the year it matters more that we have grown in Christ and not math (though that would be a good thing to). because at the end, it's Christ that matters, not whether or not we can figure out complex math problems. So, the scripture he read to us was
"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him."
Wow. It was like the teacher knew right where I was at. It just hit me.
Never in my life have I felt insufficient and incompotent for life. There are so many decisions, and i'm at a point where every turn has another fork in the road.Yet at the very same time, I have never felt my every need so supplied. It is as though the Lord is letting me see my need and my helplessness but then turning right around and binding the gap, filling the holes for me. He is teaching me to ask and recieve with humility. When I feel homesick or miss my family so much I just want to drive home, He is teaching me to turn my face to Him and letting Him fill that void in my heart. In the past couple weeks since coming to school I have been presented with several big decisions I need to make, and I have spent alot of time thinking about what to do or where to go or what to choose. Today when he read that verse, I was just filled with peace that I don't need to know these things. God does, and all I need to do is ask Him to reveal it to me.