It's a Tuesday. There's really nothing exciting going on right now but I feel the need to talk... so I'll just let myself ramble for a minute or so.
The Lord has been teaching me recently about patience. He has been revealing to me the intricate depths of His will and the delicate details of His plan for my life. He's shown me areas in which I have not exhibited patience and have tried to move things along faster than He wants!! I do not want to do anything or be anywhere but where He is. So often I get wrapped up in how I think things should work. I forget that He has it under control and I just need to seek His face, where He will make things crystal clear and give me direction on how I should live and handle certain circumstances.
"Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him, do not fret."
On a different note, this week our friends, the Arnolds, are in China getting their precious baby girl. I have experienced such joy from reading their blog ( http://www.libifaith.blogspot.com/ )and looking at their pictures as they journey to bring sweet Libi home to their family. It has also been very hard. It's very difficult for me to watch these families bring their kids home because I SOO desire that. My heart aches when I see the smiles on the faces of their family and to see the pictures of the kids in the orphanage. I long to bring a little one home and give them a family- but that is just not God's plan right now. So my lessons in patience are being put to the test this week as I seek my Father's face and trust in His plan. Trusting that He has a perfect plan for me and for the millions of children without homes. Life isn't all fairy tale endings but I hope that maybe my future holds a husband who will join with me to make a difference in the lives of these precious children. I love what Elisabeth Elliot says in one of her books, "...where the will of God is, that is where we also want to be. Learning to rest in His hands and receive each day with thanksgiving is the lesson for now. Psalm 31:15, 'My times are in your hands,' is my comfort."..... a spirit of restlessness and resistance can never wait, but one who believes he is loved with an everlasting love, and knows that underneath are the everlasting arms, will find strength and peace. God is in the waiting. 'It is God who arms with strength and makes my way perfect.' Psalm 18:32" I take heart in knowing that God is in the waiting.. that He has a beautiful and perfect plan for my life and that He is raising up families to adopt the children that I love so much. For as I said, I want to be where HE wants me and I just want to follow His will and not my own.
Thanks for listening to my heavy but happy heart!! I'm just learning and growing- but I have a joyful spirit and am grateful for all of the blessings that the Lord has lavished on me.