Heard this song on the radio today and feel like the chorus sums up the cry of my heart right now:
Here I Am
Sometimes your calling, comes in dream
Sometimes in comes in the Spirit's breeze,
You reach for the deepest part of me,
And call out for the things of eternity.
But I'm a man, of dust and stains,
You move in me, so I can say,
Here I am, Lord send me,
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me,
Somehow my story, Is part of your plan,
Here I am
When setbacks and failures, and upset plans,
Test my faith and leave me with empty hands,
Are you not the closest when it's hardest to stand?
I know that you will finish what you began.
These broken parts you redeem,
Become the song, that I can sing (chorus)
Overwhelmed by the thought of my weakness,
And the fear that I'll fail you in the end,
In this mess, I'm just one of the pieces,
I can't put this together but you can.
I once read in a book that our life is like a mosaic piece of art. Each event, joy, and heartbreak are all beautiful stones that make up the mosaic's picture. Without each single stone, the picture wouldn't be what it is. Without each of those times in our lives, we wouldn't be the people we are today. I want to desire Jesus more than anything else in the world. I want my dreams and hopes to be centered on Him alone! I want to share openly with Him the things that hurt my heart and make me cry. I want to be hopeful in trials and thankful during the easy days. I want my life- all of it- to be in His hands. I'm just a piece of dirty clay, but when put in the Master's hands a beautiful creation can develop. I want to be that piece of clay, moldable and eager to learn, yet willing for my Creator to shape something completely different out of my life than what I have in mind. I long for people to look at me and see God's goodness and grace! I want every word that I speak to be encouraging and filled with Christ's love. I want my touch to be one of kindness and love, reaching out to a fellow brother or sister to encourage, comfort, or serve. I want to change the world for the better. I see too many teenagers just sitting around, wasting their lives. I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT TEENAGER!! Just as the song says, somehow my story fits into His plan!! The journey of life and the story He's writing fits right in! Your journey and story fits right in too. So as I drove home from work today and listened to that song I was humbled and encouraged. I'm humbled that He CHOSE me to be His daughter. He adopted me and I am His. I'm encouraged because I know that He has a plan. He knows what will happen next year with school... He knows what mission trip He wants me to go on next summer... He knows it all! What a relief to know that He is in control. And that my life is apart of His plan.
Love this verse! :)
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."